So it has been a while…you might have wondered why I haven’t blogged for a while. Truth is I have been feeling in a dark hole. Yes, I get them too. The ones that wholly engulf you and threaten all that you wish for. Turning all your dreams into doubts. We all get this, we all get those things that we want so much that the absence of them feels so painful we become resigned to a pit of despair. Telling the world how unfair it is, how sad you feel, how angry that it hasn’t turned out how you thought it would.
Some might say – you are taking score too soon.
You have put out there exactly what you want. The more you experience what you don’t want the more you gain clarity on exactly what you do want. This is where the jealousy emotion can actually be helpful – because you instantly know what you need to have.
It’s when the jealousy comes round so many times that you feel trapped in the clarity of what you don’t have.
What you don’t yet have.
Know with your heart that anything you want as badly as you do is causing that feeling in you because your soul knows that it is rightfully yours, that you must have this in your life. When that is present there is no question of whether or not you can have it, only whether you can figure out how to relax into it and allow it to come to you.
I can’t tell you how many tears I have witnessed from people so sad that they don’t yet have what they want and they can’t trust that it will ever come. I can’t express to you the volume of those people I have later witnessed experiencing exactly what it was they thought they would never have.
The experiences some couples go through are truly treacherous. So unbelievably cruel they can make me question everything I believe in. But I always return to the same place. The wanting to trust. The wanting to feel better, The wanting to create relief. When people who have had so many knock backs finally achieve their dream it is the most blissful feeling I can ever have. It’s like I can feel the power of what they have done.
These women don’t get to a positive place all the time, they don’t feel good, they feel scared. But they still get there. All you can do is think and know that you have asked for what you want, you have felt it and seen it in your mind’s eye a million times. Then you have to know that it is on order for you, that it is on its way. That what you must do is let go of struggle and choose to just be. In every way that you can. Just. Be.
Don’t do anything you ‘should’. Do only what you can feel you want to do in that moment. Remember it’s on its way, and the more you can not push and just let the day flow over you, doing only what you feel you want to do the more the vibration in you softens. What comes next is respite and inspiration. Things that you need in order to make it happen will flow to you, ideas of things to do that make you feel compelled to do them will come into your head.
Trust your body to pick you back up, and trust the universe to lead you in the right direction, for it is always in the quiet that the whispers of what to do come in.